Not Exactly

by Panoramic

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A collection of songs written mostly in my bedroom when I was too sad to leave


released August 5, 2016

Recorded by The Palisades
Pacific Nature Records



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Panoramic Fountain Valley, California

6/27 - 7/31

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Track Name: Cold
Worry about me and I'll worry about
Roll over on your side I would't want you to choke
Relentlessly clinging to people
That you know won't be right here
In a month or so

Wipe off all my sweat
I just want to lay here and listen to your heart beat to my own
While not replying to anybody else right now
This is the reason that I'm dying in my dreams
So tragically you grab on to my hand
Reaching for so much more but you will miss
And say that I'm warm, you say that I am warm
But I'm not so sure you're just used to the cold
Track Name: Outside
Outside of the place where I live
Are so many reasons to stay in
Where do you belong in this whole thing
Far from anything that resembles me

I'll keep my things from your reach
I'm Outside,
Of everything what more do you need
Track Name: Situations
You seem to think that I'm
Still a part of situations that I am not anymore
No I'm just collecting my things off the floor
Twist until you start to crack until you start to feel
All of those words that you like to use

You know me well
At least you should by now
And I've been on my best behavior
Trying to take it seriously
But it's slow at first and then will start to
Progressively speed up and wear us out
Track Name: Leaves
Look at the leaves
Everything is starting to change
And I have gone with it
But only 'till It's warm outside again
Counting by three's
The water bottles and memories are piling on my nightstand
That used to be so clean and so bland and so lacking of plans
But now

But it's hard to not, feel left out

*Maybe I'm always tired from falling out my bed
I haven't wanted to feel human again
Still really hurts to, move on again
Still really hurts to, do anything*
Track Name: You Don't Mean
Don't feel forced to reply with a sentence
I know what you mean
Sometimes there's more than the outside will make it seem
*Oh make it seem*
Track Name: Mist
Hurt yourself again
I notice all your make up on my shirt
Nothing else did matter right then
I couldn't focus I couldn't care more

But all the time I want to be with
Someone who can really see me
But I'll act like I don't mind
Read all my friends play out my lines

Push yourself away from
The catalyst that made you this way
And all my problems are dumb
Everything feels made up lately
I was someone else then
You think while looking at old pictures
That one of them would be missed but that doesn't seem to be anymore
One day you will be missed, at least that's what they tell you anyway
Track Name: Bedpost
Hang me off your bedpost
Feels warm like I used to be
Like I used to feel

Anyways I'm doing fine
I'm counting days like you drink wine
Somewhere else is where I'd rather be
Of course you tell I'm not like this usually

You start to notice a pattern
Watch everyone closer

So much of me's been wasted
On what? Act innocent
Can't tell you what's been going on
Can't tell you anything you think too much

But now,
I'm going back to what I know
You're not the kind of friend that I want
Track Name: Mission Viejo
Been hiking on this trail
Seems hours but its only been about fifteen minutes
Since I drove to the top and you mentioned that we should go down
Trust me I'll figure this out

I'll block out
The sun in the morning with shades pulled down
You'd think that I'm worried of bombs but now,
I'm just more afraid of the texts I will get
When I know It's been late
And I know exactly what's been going on

Act like you're hurt but its only a scratch
Don't complain you could really fall of the tracks
If you wanted to feel bad you're more than allowed to
You're more than allowed to